Here, as I sit contemplating the embrace of deaths cool blade against my skin I can only think of you. The very fact that you can both love and despise me, while both deep, is baffling. You won't speak to me on such matters, so to lie to myself makes life bearable. But it's only that, a bearable lie. I fear I know your horrible truths, the sorrow inflicted upon such a beautiful and delicate spirit at times forces my hand to the knife and into my body. I ask for validation to be merely spared the violent imagination inside me, the ever burning torture of the unfounded. I would die for your vindication. 

Update

Hm.

Been a minute since I've written here. Let's see:

Same house.
Same job.
No money.
New lady.
School.
Music.

Does anyone read this thing?

Also. Anxiety abounds. Behavioral changes. Must be real. Want to share. Why can't I?

The end.

The Huron

New Song, "The Huron."

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Autumn crisped sweet dripping Indian summer

Dusted the shirts on our backs

Oh Colorado-

The rolling patches

Wheat, thirst bread, fills

Like smoked remains of honey

A plumage; watercolor rust

Blues and dotted reds

Making love in the sky on melting mountaintops

Our muscles filled with acid halfway up

And we summitted, submitted our

Bodies to the wild-



Forestation, ancient language

Molds of a tribe,

We are the natives

Wood. Hard stone electronic circuits

I am the passage of your youth

And the skin beneath your fingernails

Grazing over bulbs and flashing screens

Abright underbelly, character of telegraphic wire

Constant time, use.

We’re connected- copper soldered to empty sockets to assure

a more perfect union

where the brain and the fingertips

intertwine we camp out for hours

teardrop mechanics on sunlight

human motherboards widespread intercontinental consciousness

speaks for our use like a careful person

with a pretend bandage

still barely sticking to skin and metal and bone

we might be further apart than we thought.

Petite Sarah

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Few Presidents

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